I pray, but not to God, he's temperamental and sometimes just doesn't listen.
Instead, it gives me time to just close my eyes and consider.
It gives my thoughts time to think and my heart time to heel.
Time to make sense of it all and in a godly voice
give answers to my own questions.
I read the Bible, a very long time ago, when I was young
and just like Mcgyver, I dare not do it now lest I be disappointed.
And just as 'read' changes in tense, so to has the bible which I have now consigned to past tense, where, like a horoscope, It was broad enough to encompass everyone yet still specific enough for you to see your name in print.
And in a world where consequences are more immediate
and the afterlife is an after thought,
Where judgment is passed by peers
and laws made by man,
Where sentences are passed and served here on earth
I find my god has been replaced by conscience.
I have finally come to realize and accept the randomness that is life.
What a hard realisation it is.
Where good goes unrewarded, sometimes
Where the bad escape punishment, sometimes
Where help comes too late if at all, sometimes
And so, when god is apprantly testing me
When he is letting me learn the lesson
When I should just rely on my faith
When I should wait for him
When i should be praying to him
I've decided to just get on with it
fate/karma will just have to catch up
Life is a random occurrence of unrelated events.
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I'm loving the shout out to Mcgyver... and the paragraph "And in a world where consequences... replaced by conscience"... so powerful, too true. But where do you find purpose in randomness? I'm not suggesting you find it in God, fate or karma but I hate to think you and I and our friendship were an unrelated events?
ReplyDeleteThe purpose is life...Living and not worrying too much about it. The point is the beauty of our relationship -related, unrelated, planned, random - Its still wonderfully beautiful.
ReplyDeleteWe're running.