Stumble and Stand

Before you fall you stumble.
Your body does everything possible
to try and keep you in an upright position
Or at least minimise the impact of your fall.

And this is what my body did/does
for the first couple of weeks of my nutritional plan [read Diet].
It kept stumbling, not knowing that I wanted to fall.
Self preservation I guess, even if it was preservation of my current
unsummer worthy body.
Alarm bells start going off, mini stumbles, that involve a dry mouth, loud uncontrolable stomach growls, well thought out excuses, bad breadth, mood swings, hunger pains in my heart....


This made me wonder, what else my Physical and Metaphysical,
In a self destructive separation,do in the name of such preservations?

Is my inner being working with me or against me in what it thinks is right
for me? What is right for me?

What am I subconsciously not doing?
What options am I not taking?
What life am I not living?

Are the words coming out of my mouth the same as those that I'm thinking?
Are my principles abundantly apparant in my actions?
What/Who is my character?

Or am I stumbling? Trying not to fall even though I really should not be standing like this?

Actions need not be explained. They, should be explanations within themselves.

I must fall into a higher standing