Saturday 3 January 2009

I decide

I want her
Even if only because she wants me
I need Her
Even if only because I have noone else
I get her
Even if only because she picks me
I have her
Even if only because she has nowhere to go
I don't want her
Even if only because I've found someone else
I leave her
Even if only because she was about to leave me
I hate her
Even if only because she hates me



Friday 2 January 2009

Plug in and play (by yourself)

I look up and she's there, almost as if summoned by me.
I look down, away from those gorgeous eyes, as If I had not seen her.
I look up, she's looking at me, she looks away as quicky as I did, yet still, toward me she proceeds.
I look away, again, as if preoccupied with something more important.
I bob my head to the music, shaking my nerves into quiet submission.
yet still closer she comes, unperturbed by my lax
she smiles and opens her mouth, I smile and pull my earphones out
'*lips moving* Seat *lips moving* booked *lips moving*you'
She sits, next to me, her smell blossoms in my nose
I pause before I put my earphones back in
perhaps she will say something
maybe I should say something
an eternity passes, we're perfect for each in this silence
I'm gonna talk, words WILL come out of my mouth
but wait, she moves, she clears her throat, she moves her hand
she plugs in the earphones, and slowly, as if waiting for me to stop her, 
she puts them in her ears and presses play
she bobs her head but not up and down but rather, more appropriately Side to side

Thursday 1 January 2009

Touch

Oh where art thou oh touch
A feeling I long for so much
Niether on my skin nor in my heart
the kindest gesture now fallen apart
When mistakenly placed, removed with haste
and followed closely with distaste
Innocently placed yet mistakenly felt
sure to leave a mark like a nail over a welt
Removed by those who need it much
they do not want to feel, so why should they touch